Some Instagram photos. Meet Mimibels (I know, I know. Haha...), a tiny kitten we picked up on the way home and decided to take care of. Second Instagram photo is my Valentine's Day FOTD while the third one is my eyemake for that day, with pink and red eyeshadows and winged eyeliner.

BTW, my Instagram ID is otakurocker16. ヽ（◕◡◕❀ฺ ）ノ


Well, that's it for now...


じゃね！

Photo via Google. Credits to the owner.

Oro! (Sorry, I still can't get over my RuroKen addiction, heheh...)
Time flies by really fast, don't you think so? A year ago, I posted my New Year's greeting... and here I am again doing the same for this year!

Anyway, I just wanna take this bit of time and space to say "Thank You Lord" for the past year, and anything and everything that came with it.

Let's all welcome this year with a prayer. And I wish all of us good health, peace, love, and happiness.

あけましておめでとう みんな！

おひさしぶり！

So sorry for being MiA... The past couple of weeks have been very exhausting for me. Dunno -- probably 'cause apart from the already tiring 9-hour job every weekday, the Holiday season is here, and that means lots of preparations for activities and parties here and there. Ugh...

Not that I'm complaining! Heck, it's actually been loads of fun and I am truly thankful for everything -- though that meant attending rehearsals after work, practicing even at home, planning and shopping for makeup and outfits. You get my drift... At the end of the day all I'd want to do is grab a quick bite, surf the net a bit, then hit the sack...

But hey, all's done and so I'm back! Let me just share with you some of what I've been up to these past few weeks...

Had my birthday last November. Post-birthday celebration included a movie-dinner affair with a friend, and a super-delicious chocolate cake from Oniichan Bryan and Oneechan Ekai! Yes, you can kill me with chocolate.

Got myself a new bass tuner. 'Cause my barely-a-year-old Cherub one died on me, and the other one which I purchased from RJ is such a FAIL. Anyway, I am so happy with this Fender tuner.

"Right now I’m definitely lost. Even if I want to hide it, the part of me that’s lost… is still me. All I can do for now is to concentrate on what’s directly in front of me."

~ Yuuta Takemoto (Honey and Clover)

I've been in a slump lately, and the past couple of weeks have been an emotional rollercoaster ride for me. I've been in and out with bouts of depression and anger, distress and anxiety, pain and suffering. Admittedly, I've been pretty unstable since "that time". With alternating moments of laughter, joy and happiness one time, wallowing in tears and pure sadness the next. Even when I'm outside or in the midst of other people, every little thing that makes me remember would send tears flooding behind my eyes, threatening to drop any time. My mind, heart and soul... everything is disrupted. I was a complete and utter wreck. I even purposefully neglected this blog, I didn't have the drive to write anything. Or do anything else for that matter. I didn't have the motivation to go to work, play bass, or even cook my meals. My laundry is piling up, my nendos are gathering dust, and I could even 'feel' my hamsters begging me to clean their cages. Ugh, now I feel bad... This is really a personal matter, and even though this blog is an "online diary" of sorts for me, I don't know if I'll be able to talk about it in detail here. Most probably not. It's been almost a month, and as much as possible, I don't want to remember anymore. I just wanna forget and let it all out in this little post. But nothing will change the fact that it hurts, until now. So much. No matter what the cause is, heartbreaks are always hard to deal with. But life must go on...


"But I realized why I was lost. It's not because I don’t have a map. It's because I don’t have a destination."

~ Yuuta Takemoto (Honey and Clover)


Well now, this is getting pretty embarrassing. Heheh... Anyway, I just wanna say "Thank you, thank you..." to all of the people (if you're able to read this, you know who you are) who have been a great support system for me. It's been a crazy period in my life, and I can't thank you enough for helping me get back on track. And of course, I thank God most of all. I've been praying more, asking for strength and guidance, and I know He listens. At this point, I can say that I'm pretty much okay but still not alright. Though I'll be fine. I'll live. I can't think much of anything else to say right now... There's still a lot of things missing, but there's also a lot of things I'm learning. I'm slowly picking up the pieces and rearranging them, so that soon, everything will fall into place...

いつか，きっと。


"I'd been wondering whether there is a meaning to a failed love... Is something that disappeared the same as something that never existed? But now I know there is -- There was a meaning right here... Because despite the heartbreak, I'm still glad that I fell in love with you."

~ Yuuta Takemoto (Honey and Clover)

PS. I just love the anime Honey and Clover.

There you go. Some more random things to come.